makeevil

I realize that getting older is a part of life, but i still feel 18. I've gone backwards since then. I grew up a little bit grew into a man sorta. had an internship at a mag, thought i knew what I wanted out of life, to work in the music scene. Then I saw what the music biz intailed, id say it sucked.

I moved to san fran to take up college a new thing to me, I was hit with panic attacks depression, beer, and pot. I didn't like any of it.

I went to a hardcore show at the old stomping grounds to me this weekend and I feel like I was back where i belong. Fat again, pissed again, and laughing at people that used to make me laugh again. I think I'm at a point in my life where I realize that when I was younger and hated impressing people and just was myself was the best times of my life. I never wanted to be good looking or popular or on peoples speed dial all I wanted was the ocasional good time and nothing to stand in my way.
I'm content with many things like I was when I was younger before I even felt love. It's up to the majority now to realize they can come along for the ride or they can piss off. If they choose to piss off I hope they do it facing the santa anna's so it hits them in the teeth and they notice how fucking amazing it tastes to be wrong.